#4.36 Clean

" The drought was the very worst. "

First of all, I would like to apologize for the long absence of new updates because I was too busy dealing and reasoning with thunder all these while. After going through months of endless troubles, it's now finally (and hopefully) in the past. 

Me being me as always, I did not feel like talking about all the dark moments and emotional thoughts that I was put through during the past few months. Instead, I would like to focus on the better (and happier) side of the story. Long story short, I had finally left Nottingham for good, moved to Dorchester and somehow ended up working in a new town by the beach known as Weymouth.

Dorchester South.

Weymouth town.

Everything was very new and I felt like I was living the life of a complete stranger for the past couple of months. Sometimes, there would be moments when I realised that I could hardly recognise my old self anymore and at some point, I would be a little shaken by how time passed by so quickly and slowly at the same time. 

There was still a small part of me that lived in the past and if I were to be honest, I was a bit frightened that I would forget how I, or we, used to live and feel before we greeted the real world with our innocent minds. 

To the life which might not be a bed of roses right now.

Favourite drink between work.

Everything I did now I did it on my own. With no one by my side in this little small town, I had to keep it together, carry on and learn how to take one step at a time. There were kind souls around who helped me as much as they could (to which I was utterly grateful for) but of course there were also those who were neither considerate nor helpful. 

However, looking at the positive side as always, I was real pleased that both types of people came into my life so that I knew exactly who to cherish and hold on tightly to in the future.

My graduation and Christmas gifts.

There were days when I was proud of how independent I had become and was absolutely sure that I could make it on my own, but there were also days when I lost control, broke down and felt like I could not go on anymore. There was always a constant inner conflict of wanting to be self-reliant but at the same time wished to be properly pampered and taken care of.

While I was plagued with issues that could not be solved immediately, I decided to take the train up to London for a short break. While there, I met up with WanTying and it felt really good to be able to talk to someone freely after what seemed like forever.

I had a really nice time in London and I realized that sometimes I would really miss this big old city together with all the past memories.

Morning, London! 

The quirky lavatory-turned-underground cafe.

Breakfast. 

Amorino sorbet! 

Aperol Spritz.

Back to my favourite spot in Soho!

Patrick conquering London!

Meet up. 

A few weeks later, much to my surprise, I flew back to Malaysia after two years. It was a swift and sudden decision, not that I had a choice to begin with. Although the return to Malaysia wasn't for a fun reason, it was still a decent change of environment. One that I needed very much.

Being a 馋嘴猫 as usual, I grabbed the opportunity to satisfy many of my cravings (sorry but not sorry for the spam of food photos) after my very long absence. Overall, I had a pretty relaxing one and a half week in AS and KL albeit the need to deal with everything that I needed to before I reluctantly flew back to the UK again.

First lunch in Changi airport. 感动到～

Manggis and how I missed them!

Satay. 

Kept my saliva drooling.

Still good and hot.

Of Roti Canai and Tea Tarik.

Both of our favourites.

Of big popcorn and hand-written cinema tickets.

Sunny day out.

Green tea.

Missed it so much.

Sushi sushi~ 

Chicken chop.

Still the best porridge.

KFC always made me happy.

The best surprise.

The past few months were definitely not a bed of roses for me but somehow I made it through with the help of all my loved ones. If there was one thing that I was certain of, it was that I would have thrown in the towel long ago if these people weren't there to push and guide me through this difficult transition in life. And I could not stress how grateful I was to them. =)

Pumpkin spice latte that's unbeatable.

Good food and hotel after a long study day.

Movenpick.

Breakfast before another day began!

One of the many reasons I looked forward to study days.

Dessert.

Excessive doses of caffeine intake these few months.

There would be a lot more sunshine and rainy days ahead in the coming near future but for better or for worse, I knew that somehow I would be able to manage them because I had got a bunch of awesome people, even though faraway, who always got my back. And that was the best gift that I could ever ask for in life.

Good night world for now. XOXO. =)

Feel The Light - Jennifer Lopez