#3.06 Afternoon Siesta

"Just so you know, I'm super duper tired and I'm not going to try to fight it anymore."

A lot of things happened lately. Some of them really hurt a lot. I tried very hard to pretend not to be bothered every time it happened but to no avail. It kept repeating itself, and it's really sickening. I had been trying too hard to find excuses and reasons for your fault and I'm stupid enough to put up with all your crap all these while. Just so you know, I'm super duper tired and I'm not going to try to fight it anymore. I've accepted that's how things ought to be.

Thanks to my high school besties and some Aussie friends, I somehow made it through. It wouldn't be possible without them, and I couldn't imagine a life without them. They are always there to catch me when I fall. And for that, I'm eternally grateful.

Lots of great things happened too thank God. Despite the busy schedule, we managed to squeeze in some time for parties and kk sessions.

Bookmade's belated birthday.

The random lunch, cam-whoring and mini kk. Like really random.

The real kk session in Redbox after the very much stressed Biology test.

Life gets too hard sometimes. Some say when you expect nothing, life becomes a lot easier and happier. But shouldn't we expect everything from our friends? If not why do we call them friends instead of fucking son of a bitch strangers? How come with some people it's so easy and comfortable but with some being yourself just isn't going to be good enough? Like you have to be someone else or something more so you can fit right in. Do these people worth it? But 1 thing that you can be sure of, these people never back you up when you are in trouble.

Just so you know, I'm tired and I'm not going to try anymore. Caz you just don't worth it. I'm going to take a long long afternoon nap right now and after that maybe I'll have the courage to go on. Maybe.

Simple life. One God. Best family. Great friends. Good songs. That's all I need. =)

Firework - Katy Perry

#3.05 Faith

"When things spin out of control, when life becomes a mess, when everything begins to slip right out of our hands, it's easy to lose faith."

A few days back, a few of us decided to hang out at Jusco between Bio and Stats despite many told us that we couldn't make it back in time. But still we went anyway. It was definitely the right move as we had been cooped up at the hostel for way too long. To sum it up, the day was

1) certifiably insane

2)making a fool of ourselves posing in public...

...with people staring & giving us weird looks

3) and most importantly, fun.

We had faith in ourselves and we made it in the end. (Ok, we're half an hour late but that's not the point. ) A lot of people think that they have the faith that they don't. When things spin out of control, when life becomes a mess, when everything begins to slip right out of our hands, it's easy to lose faith. We keep telling ourselves to have faith but we're swearing fuck for 123456789 times worrying and doubting at the very same time. Then, we start to blame God, Allah, Buddha, friends, family, Samivellu, Tiger Wood, Samantha Jonnes, Osama, Najib....ok, I've no friggin' idea what I'm taking about right now. Everyone but ourselves.

A lot do not believe in God. That's stupid fine. But at least have faith in something, anything because life without faith in something is too hard to go on. If you have faith that good things can and will continue to happen, they can and they will.

When everything goes wrong, it's indeed easy to lose faith. But it's also the best time to gain it. After all, a little bit of faith wouldn't hurt.

The MK's cart torturing time.

If I Had You - Adam Lambert