Step into the daylight and let it go.

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

#4.37 You're Not Sorry

" The ten unapologetic anthems that added a great pinch of awesomeness into my otherwise monotonous and uninspired life. "



A recent conversation with my mum about how the right music could lift and set the mood for the entire day woke me up from my little weekly self-indulgent gloominess. It dawned on me that I could either listen to Hello and cry all night or hit the Fancy replay button and feel extraordinary for the rest of the day. 

Therefore, I guessed that it's about time to welcome all the silly-but-I-love-it-anyway pop songs back into my life after they decided to walk out on me a few months ago. And I wasn't even a tiny bit sorry that men had no place in all of the music that I played.


1) FOCUS

Boo Boo haters gonna hate. Make do with the fact that you could never really satisfy everyone so just let them say what they say and focus on doing what you heart most in life. And everything that Ariana Grande touches is gold.


I'm over here doing what I like
I'm over here working day and night
And if my real ain't real enough
I'm sorry for you, bae!


2) MY KIND

When every single part of your body needs to sweat so much more than your eyes. And everyone fades out when you step in so please love me right, keep me sane and lift me to higher grounds.



So I keep telling me
You take the weight off my shoulders
You're every missing piece
You're real, for now 


3) STYLE

Days when I miss you and your dreamy eyes or when I have seen enough behind-the-scenes of my life. And I still could not get over the fact that how classy this song is after listening to it for a billionth times.


You got that James Dean daydream look in your eye
And I got that red lip classic thing that you like
And when we go crashing down, we come back every time
'Cause we never go out of style


4) BO$$

Would love to build an empire brick by brick out of dust and sand. Still on the highway to be my own Kanye and constantly tapping into my inner Yeezus as much as I could. A long drive ahead yet but would die to get there some day eventually.



I want a Kanye-ye not a Ray J
So that's a no no
I'm a Maybach and you's Volvo


5) FLAWLESS

This song is not music but my daily prescribed med that helps keep my sight focused on the right people and things. 1T OD is more than enough to make my little twisted mind go for a happy spin ride. The only side effect is that the video always makes me want to guilt shop for more clothes by clicking into that Topman website.



Momma taught me good home training
My Daddy taught me how to love my haters
My sister told me I should speak my mind
My man made me feel so God damn fine.


6) DONATELLA

Limited only on occasions when Mimi turned Mimimella once every blue moon or when I want to keep my life fab, or at the very least pretending that I'm keeping it that way.



MIMI-mella
All of the day
I'm the pearl to your oyster
I'm a babe.


7) VOGUE

Days when you need to keep it classic. It does zero good to me and my life if I were to keep standing there and do nothing. So, now move. And did I ever mention that she's the one who makes me fall down the rabbit hole and discover the astonishing world of American and British music and I never really want to leave this wonderland ever since.



All you need is your own imagination
So use it that's what it's for
Go inside, for your finest inspiration


8) LOVE MYSELF

Be your own hero especially when you already have one in life. May guilt sing and dance to the lyrics during work-out but I absolutely embrace the fact that I don't mind the right amount of air kisses as they wouldn't hurt either.


When I get chills at night
I feel it deep inside without you, yeah
Know how to satisfy
Keeping that tempo right without you.


9) JOURNEY

Could not get enough of her and her style since forever and nothing has ever changed all these years. The rest of the records from that country (except Amit's) sound boring and the same. 



 完美 探寻探寻中 值得想入非非
幸福 探寻探寻中 尽情想入非非


10) PUMPIN BLOOD

If I could only have one anthem that I could listen to religiously, this would be it. I'm so glad to have found this perfect piece of music and whoever who wrote it is f*ckin' brilliant. Get the job done and make me want to pick myself up and move forward.


Hey heart, on the road again, moving on, forward
Stick and stones won't break the bones



Gonna put all the heartbreak and teardrops temporarily in the back drawer and lock them up. Mind and heart, hang in there and please only be stunning and fancy from now on especially with lots of sunshine and rainy days ahead. 

Good night world. XOXO. =)



Work - Iggy Azalea

Sunday, November 15, 2015

#4.36 Clean

" The drought was the very worst. "



First of all, I would like to apologize for the long absence of new updates because I was too busy dealing and reasoning with thunder all these while. After going through months of endless troubles, it's now finally (and hopefully) in the past. 

Me being me as always, I did not feel like talking about all the dark moments and emotional thoughts that I was put through during the past few months. Instead, I would like to focus on the better (and happier) side of the story. Long story short, I had finally left Nottingham for good, moved to Dorchester and somehow ended up working in a new town by the beach known as Weymouth.

Dorchester South.
Weymouth town.

Everything was very new and I felt like I was living the life of a complete stranger for the past couple of months. Sometimes, there would be moments when I realised that I could hardly recognise my old self anymore and at some point, I would be a little shaken by how time passed by so quickly and slowly at the same time. 

There was still a small part of me that lived in the past and if I were to be honest, I was a bit frightened that I would forget how I, or we, used to live and feel before we greeted the real world with our innocent minds. 

To the life which might not be a bed of roses right now.
Favourite drink between work.

Everything I did now I did it on my own. With no one by my side in this little small town, I had to keep it together, carry on and learn how to take one step at a time. There were kind souls around who helped me as much as they could (to which I was utterly grateful for) but of course there were also those who were neither considerate nor helpful. 

However, looking at the positive side as always, I was real pleased that both types of people came into my life so that I knew exactly who to cherish and hold on tightly to in the future.

My graduation and Christmas gifts.

There were days when I was proud of how independent I had become and was absolutely sure that I could make it on my own, but there were also days when I lost control, broke down and felt like I could not go on anymore. There was always a constant inner conflict of wanting to be self-reliant but at the same time wished to be properly pampered and taken care of.

While I was plagued with issues that could not be solved immediately, I decided to take the train up to London for a short break. While there, I met up with WanTying and it felt really good to be able to talk to someone freely after what seemed like forever.

I had a really nice time in London and I realized that sometimes I would really miss this big old city together with all the past memories.

Morning, London! 
The quirky lavatory-turned-underground cafe.
Breakfast. 
Amorino sorbet! 
Aperol Spritz.
Back to my favourite spot in Soho!
Patrick conquering London!
Meet up. 

A few weeks later, much to my surprise, I flew back to Malaysia after two years. It was a swift and sudden decision, not that I had a choice to begin with. Although the return to Malaysia wasn't for a fun reason, it was still a decent change of environment. One that I needed very much.

Being a 馋嘴猫 as usual, I grabbed the opportunity to satisfy many of my cravings (sorry but not sorry for the spam of food photos) after my very long absence. Overall, I had a pretty relaxing one and a half week in AS and KL albeit the need to deal with everything that I needed to before I reluctantly flew back to the UK again.

First lunch in Changi airport. 感动到~
Manggis and how I missed them!
Satay. 
Kept my saliva drooling.
Still good and hot.
Of Roti Canai and Tea Tarik.
Both of our favourites.
Of big popcorn and hand-written cinema tickets.
Sunny day out.
Green tea.
Missed it so much.
Sushi sushi~ 
Chicken chop.
Still the best porridge.
KFC always made me happy.
The best surprise.

The past few months were definitely not a bed of roses for me but somehow I made it through with the help of all my loved ones. If there was one thing that I was certain of, it was that I would have thrown in the towel long ago if these people weren't there to push and guide me through this difficult transition in life. And I could not stress how grateful I was to them. =)

Pumpkin spice latte that's unbeatable.
Good food and hotel after a long study day.
Movenpick.
Breakfast before another day began!
One of the many reasons I looked forward to study days.
Dessert.
Excessive doses of caffeine intake these few months.

There would be a lot more sunshine and rainy days ahead in the coming near future but for better or for worse, I knew that somehow I would be able to manage them because I had got a bunch of awesome people, even though faraway, who always got my back. And that was the best gift that I could ever ask for in life.

Good night world for now. XOXO. =)



Feel The Light - Jennifer Lopez