Step into the daylight and let it go.

Monday, June 22, 2009

#6 The Lull Before The Storm

"However, thanks to Chiew, all the guys who were holding Brian were drenched with the “thing” and the worst part was that it had a revolting and disgusting smell."



It’s a life-changing week. It’s also the saddest and the happiest week of my life. I have been sleeping in Chiew’s room for many days. And I wanted to thank him and Azizul for letting me to stay in their rooms. I knew my days in Adelaide were numbered. And this might be the last post that I would write in Adelaide. However, the reality hadn’t sunk in yet so far. The fact that I’m leaving Adelaide still seemed surreal for me. Maybe I kept on denying the fact that I was going to leave Adelaide for forever and never get the chance to meet any of my friends here anymore. But like they say, Never Say Never, right?

Brian’s birthday was the craziest birthday that I have ever had in my life. Before his birthday, Michelle, Jasmine, Chiew and I had planned everything ahead so that Brian could have the most memorable birthday. And it turned out to be the best one. When we were “studying” in the 7th floor, we communicated in Chinese so that Brian could not understand what we were talking about. We also booked a cake named “White Delight” before Brian’s birthday. It’s such a shame that such an expensive and delicious cake ended up in everyone’s face, hair, shirt and everywhere on the floor. However, it was crazy and fun when everyone kept on throwing pieces of cake on one another. I could hardly remember how the “cake fight” started. But what I knew was that when I was still laughing at Brian’s face that was full of cake, I felt something cold on my face and ear. Then, all hell broke loose. After everyone was covered in cake, we took Brian outside and poured the “thing” on him. However, thanks to Chiew, all the guys who were holding Brian were drenched with the “thing” and the worst part was that it had a revolting and disgusting smell. In fact, it smelled worse than shit.

I went to Jamie’s room to study but ended up sleeping there. However, I when I woke up I felt so hot and dazed. I didn’t know why I would sweat on her bed. Maybe it’s because I covered myself with blanket. However, I still wanted to say sorry to her for sweating on her bed. Jamie asked me to delay the date of going back so that we could spend more time together before I went back. I didn’t know if I can but I would try my best.

Yesterday, after everyone had studied for the whole day, or was about to start studying, Jasmine, Michelle, Chiew, Brian and I decided to play with the coke and mentos. We went outside the lodge with our jackets on. However, it was still cold during this winter time. Then, Brian put the mentos inside the coke but the coke just shot up about the length of a ruler and did not last for long. It’s quite disappointing, but still fun after all. Then, I went to Michelle and Jasmine’s room to chat for a while. Jasmine said that friends are forever and we could contact one another via MSN. Michelle said that maybe we could still meet in Malaysia when they came back. However, it was still so sad to leave them.

I didn’t know whether I have made the right choice. I knew clearly that this choice would affect the rest of my life. My family wanted me to make the decision myself. However, after thinking for quite a long time, I finally made my decision. It’s hard and it’s the most difficult one, but it must be made as time was not on my side anymore. Goodbyes would surely be hard but it at the same time was the only way to destiny. It’s just so hard to pretend that you’re fine when you’re not. I didn’t know how long I would need to heal, but I knew it won’t be short.

Brian, Chiew and I slacking in the room the day before the English Exam.

Brian, Michelle and Jasmine playing with the coke and mentos.

The "thing" that was mixed with rice, chilli sauce, eggs, water, honey, and other 10 types of ingredients.

The process of making the "thing".

Sunday, June 14, 2009

#5 A Week To Remember

"Jasmine was looking for the surveillance camera but she couldn’t find it. When Michelle pointed it out to her, the shopkeeper told Jasmine that she was on TV."



As predicted, I had been busy throughout the week, and due to the hectic schedule, the week flew past in a wink of an eye. I have been waiting “patiently” for the whole week for the JPA letter to come, but it didn’t.

2 days ago, when I was rushing to finish my biology assignment, Marion called to ask me about my exam timetable as the church needed it to pray for me so that I can have a good result in this coming mid-year exam. I couldn’t express how grateful I was to her by then. After that, I received a call from Grandpa and I chatted with him for quite a long time. Mummy told me that Grandpa had been very worry as I didn’t answer his phone earlier. This is because I was having dinner at that time and I felt really sorry to keep him waiting for so long. He discussed with me the pros and cons of accepting the JPA scholarship and later he asked me about my Math test result. Luckily, I did fine and did not disappoint him. He told me that he had planned my future for me and asked me not to worry about anything. I was so touched and at the same time very grateful as I have the greatest grandfather in this world.

Then, I called my grandaunt and she gave me a pep talk. Due to all the conversation, I nearly couldn’t finish my assignment that was due before the very twelve o’clock. And by the time I finished it, I realized that I couldn’t send my assignment due to the network problem. However, luckily I could still use my MSN and I sent it to Jasmine just in time before my network was completely down. I wanna say a big thank you to Jasmine for helping me. If not, I surely would get a big egg for my biology assignment.

The next day, I went to China Town to meet Huiren, Alvin, and Weechen. I decided to pamper myself after a week of debilitating schedule. I was taken by surprise when I saw Azizul and Careena there. Later, Michelle and Brian came too and we had our lunch together. Then, we went to Rundle Mall for a while and Michelle and Brian suggested that I could go to Bradford Lodge as Azizul’s going to cook dinner for everyone that night and that the next day I could go to the church with them. While we were waiting for Azizul to finish his Hot Choc so that we could get in the cab, Brian told me that he’s going to call his driver to come and pick us up. I did not pay much attention as it was a lame thing to say. Seconds later, my phone rang and I picked it up.

“Bring my car,” Brian said. I was dazed for a moment and when I figured out what was going on, I replied politely by saying “what the fish!” For Michelle and Brian who were hearing impaired and heard that I was using the F word, I suggested that you two should probably go for a hearing test. After I put my stuff in Azizul’s room, I went to Jamie’s room and found out that Serene and Jasmine was there. They said that they were doing homework. And by homework, they mean chatting and “resting their eyes” (Resting the eyes and sleeping are two different things, according to Jasmine.) Lamerest Jamie was being overdramatic by shouting and jumping up and down like a Mashimaro when she saw a restaurant that she had never seen before from her window and I grabbed the opportunity to make fun of her by imitating her childish response. Serene on the other hand was so stupid in believing that Jamie and I knew each other before coming to Adelaide. Later, I went to the first floor to help Azizul to cook and by help, I mean standing there doing nothing and watched chef Azizul cooking curry beef, fried chicken and vegetables. Michelle asked Zul why he went to buy the tins of coconut milk when she had them. Azizul replied by saying that the coconut milk he was using was hers. I couldn’t stop laughing by then at Michelle’s pigness.

After that, I went to Shell with Michelle, Brian, Zhaofarn and Jasmine. Jasmine was looking for the surveillance camera but she couldn’t find it. When Michelle pointed it out to her, the shopkeeper told Jasmine that she was on TV. “She is hiding now, er, she is gone,” the shopkeeper was laughing as Jasmine made her embarrassing escape. Later we went to Alex’s room to watch “An Inconvenient Truth” and GGWS, the two most boring films that I had ever seen. But we could do nothing as they would come out in the coming exam.

Today morning, I woke up to Michelle’s call asking me whether I would go to the church with them, I was so tired and told her that I was not going. Azizul cooked roti canai for me and it tasted so nice. And I really want to thank him for cooking all the nice food. We ate as we watched “Get Smart”. I knew the exam was coming but I couldn’t have care less about it.

Next week is the revision week and we will be sitting for the Critical Thinking exam. I hope that I can survive it or I would not be able to fly home two weeks for holidays. Good luck to all Bradford students. :)

The most stupid things of the week:
1) Jamie kept on photostating the blank pages as she didn't know how to use the photostat machine.
2)Jasmine crossing the road when the red light is on.
3) Nicole, eugenie and I spamming blogs and Facebook profiles


"Resting the eyes, not sleeping!" Lazy people's excuse.


Taken after filling our mouth with Oreo in Alex's room.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

#4 Priblem Break

"I looked at her and the girl seemed carefree and happy. And I couldn’t remember when was the last time I felt that way."



I woke up today and found out that I had a new message from Felicia. She asked me to cheer up and decide whatever it was that I really wanted although it was a hard decision. She also told me that she would pray for me and that God would lead me to where He wanted me to go. I felt warm and replied her immediately to thank her.

The whole week had been a total disaster for me, and the only good news was that I was still breathing. I had always wished that my boring and dull life could be more dramatic. And the wish came true. And now I understood what they meant by beware what you wish for. Blood drained from my face when James told me that I got the JPA scholarship to UK. I couldn’t come to terms with what had happened and I phoned Jasmine immediately, and told her the news. I was completely freaked out by then. I tried so hard to hold back my tears but I failed miserably. The thought of leaving Adelaide made me shudder. I knew clearly in my heart that I could never survive another goodbye again.

I was late for almost every class and I felt really sorry for Michelle. I reckoned that of all the partners of Critical Thinking survey, she had got the worst one. As if the week had not been rough enough, I spilled a cup of coffee on the common room table and on my bag. I was so angry at my own clumsiness at that time. What the hell is wrong with you, I quipped to myself. Luckily, Michelle knew clearly what to do and informed the receptionist about it. Weechen, on the other hand, came into the toilet while I was washing the last drop of coffee out of my bag to see if I was fine. I couldn’t express how grateful I was by then to both of them. And I really wanted to thank God that I have found a lot of true friends here. Michelle and Jasmine gave me a long pep talk on whether to accept the scholarship or not. Jasmine was always there by my side through thick and thin and Michelle the pig suddenly became so wise when it came to giving advice. They told me to follow my own heart and to make a wise decision as it was about my own future. Jamie told me to take it easy and she scared that there would be less lame jokes after a lame guy left. Weechen and Alvin were always there for me as usual. Huiren pleaded me to stay. Eugenie who nicknamed me fugly monkey said that although I was always mean and bad to her, she would still feel sad. Azizul and Chiew on the other hand asked me if I was still emo. All the friends from BP-Hope Church especially Felicia, Cong, Marion, Sarah, and Shu Ai were also very concerned and gave me some useful advice. In the Angel/Mortal box, I received a lolly from my angel. Although I didn't know who was my angel, I was still touched. Of course, Fatty fat, Huien, Joolin, Yvonne, Yuxin, Zixian, CC, CCY, Chaoyang, Jiji and my same age bro Mingwei were always so supportive and I was much obliged to them.

To get my mind off everything, I decided to go swimming and have a spa with Huiren and Weechen although Granpa told me not to. I guessed the best part of being far away from home was that you could filter out all the bad things you have done and just tell your family what you wanted them to know. I wished I could spend the rest of my life in the spa as it was so relaxing and warm especially in this winter time, and it made me forget all my problems. Then, we went to China Town to have our lunch and we were joined by Han and Careena. Careena was her usual self, always smiling no matter what happened. I looked at her and the girl seemed carefree and happy. And I couldn’t remember when was the last time I felt that way. Since we wanted to have Tofu and soup, Careena suggested that we could order the Tofu soup. It had too much pepper added to it but overall it was still nice. After enjoying a lovely meal, Huiren, Weechen, Careena and I unanimously agreed to go shopping at Rundle Mall. We went to a few shops before we came to FCUK and I found a nice reckoner jacket that suited me quite well. I decided to buy it eventually and Huiren bought a shirt too. Careena was very helpful and be our shopping advisor as she clearly knew which style suited us the best. At the end of the day, the original plan of studying in the library was aborted. However, I was still very happy to get to hang out with them.

This week although started off badly but ended quite nice. I really appreciated all the innumerable kindness that all my friends had given me. The next week would be super busy and the challenge has just begun. I hope that I can break free from all the problems next week as I had this week. Fight mode ON!