Step into the daylight and let it go.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

#2.2 Charmed

"I'm blessed."



When you're reading this, don't worry, I'm still very much alive. Life has been good to me and although it hasn't been as good as it used to be, I'm still satisfied with everything I have now. Ever since I came to Shah Alam, I began to learn more about life as days passed by. I learnt that not everyone was as fortunate as others, not everyone had a warm family to support them every now and then, and not everyone appreciated things that others had done for them.

As for me, I knew that I'd always been lucky ever since I was born. Being the first grandson in the family, so much love had been showered to me by everyone in the family. I wouldn't deny that I had always taken everything in my life for granted, especially my family and friends. I came from a big family and everyone of us had unique and different personality. Like any other family, we had family issues too and we liked to quarrel, argue and disagree with one another. Almost every day there would be a new issue and everyone would fight and a verbal conflict was inevitable, but at the end of the day, the issue would be solved and all was forgotten and forgiven. There's not one family event that did not involve all the fights and arguments. We often wanted to kill one another but we all clearly knew that we would be utterly lost without one another. They always let me make my own decisions, let me chase my dreams, and let me do things that would make me happy. They made me strong and encouraged me to believe in that strength. And they made it clear that if anything went wrong, I could always go home and they would always be there for me.

Family that can never be replaced.

My life would never have been completed without all my friends. I found my group of friends in high school, another new group in Adelaide. We did practically everything together. In high school, we always hanged out in malls together, watched movies together, burnt the midnight oils together the night before the exams, had sleepovers, travelled together and the best part was talking about sex issues and made dirty jokes unashamedly. In Adelaide, there was a bunch of ass monkey friends that always be around and gave me all the great memories that I would cherish forever. We went to the same college together and although we studied in different classes, the bond we formed grew stronger as each day passed by and seriously, I really felt more like family than friends and it seemed like we had met for a century rather than just a few months. We visited so many places together, had picnic by Glenelg beach, watched the most beautiful sunset at Henley beach, picked strawberries at Beerenberg Strawberry Farm, teased one another about the subjects we had chosen (Still Biology rules and a big BOO to Physics, haha) and always had lunch together. I have always wondered what I had done to deserve such awesome friends. So, I wanted to say a BIG thank you to all of them. You all have certainly left a significant footstep in my journey of life. I missed them so much and I would never have made it to today without them. And of course friends in INTEC were just as great especially all the 10M10 friends (sorry for being an irresponsible class rep), all the Christian friends, my roommates and of course the cheerful JiChing, cute but grumpy Sin Hui, and helpful ChienChoong.

Bestest friends in High School. (Many were left out)

Bestest friends in Adelaide. (Some left out too)

Friends in INTEC.


Speaking of life, I had always pondered and wondered what life really was. Recently, I got a quote from a movie saying that "Life is a climb, but the view is great." It's very true and HuiRen asked me what if he fell into a deep valley. I told him that he just had to pick himself up and climb back up again. Yes, life's as simple as that. We would meet all kinds of people in life, some would make it brighter and some would let us down, and when that happened we just had to pick ourselves up and move on. However I think that my life now is about love, friends and family as I won't know what I would do without them. And now everyday I am growing closer to Christ and His love and faith to all of us are just so amazing. I don't have any dreams now (about ambition) but I know that I would figure it out one day. I have a family to love, friends to turn to when I'm tired, and Christ that's always there for me. This is what dreams are made of to me.

I'm really blessed and lucky. Charmed? I'm sure.



Currently
listening to: The Climb by Miley Cyrus
watching: Gossip Girl Season 3
reading: Crayon SinChan

Saturday, September 12, 2009

#2.1 Ghost Whispered

"Before I could figure out what was actually happening, a powerful source of energy rushed into my body and I began to shiver and tremble like a leaf. "



It had been 2 months since I came back to Malaysia, being away from all my ass Adelaide friends (Don't blame me, Jamie called all of us that. ) and finally everything seemed to start making a little bit sense to me. Life was easy but dull. Just as I thought everything was getting better in time, the incident yesterday, or early this morning struck me like a lighting bolt, too sudden and too quick for me to escape and worse off, there was no where else to escape.

It was around 3a.m. in the morning, and I had just finished a quarter of my Biology report as I had been slacking the whole day. A few minutes later, I got tired and decided to call it a day. As usual, I went to brush my teeth and wash my face before getting into my bed. Before long, I drifted off to sleep. I dreamt that I was walking on a road and started to feel all dizzy and began to fall to the ground. Then as crazy as it sounded, everything was plunged into pitch darkness and I began to feel a strong force sucked me into the hole of darkness. Suddenly, I was instantly awake and I was 100% sure that I was not in the dream anymore. I tried to move and struggled to open my eyes but I couldn't. All I could do was lying still on the bed. Before I could figure out what was actually happening, a powerful source of energy rushed into my body and I began to shiver and tremble like a leaf. My whole body was shaking and I could feel something inside of me. I panicked and for a moment then I really thought that I was going to die. The energy inside of me was so strong and there was nothing else I could do.

I tried my best to open my eyes, and I just could make out the silhouette of the closets in my room. I knew that something was very, very wrong and instantly I knew I had to do something. Although I lost control of my body, my mind was clear. I knew I had to fight it off and I began to pray. As a buddhist, instinctively I began to say "Amitofo" but nothing had changed. Then, I kept on repeating the word "Jesus" in my mind for some time. I didn't even have the time to fear or think, I just kept saying them and finally when I shouted the word "Jesus Christ" in my mind, I began to feel it slowly slipping away and eventually it left my body. At that very moment, I could sit up and open my eyes. I looked around me and found out that nothing had changed and everything was still in its own place. Rahman and Zaid were still up using their laptops.

Without much thought, I walked out of my room into the study room and talked to Zaid, my roommate, about it. My eyes widened as I heard the words coming out from his mouth. " I've also experienced such thing before when I slept, I think there's something "dirty" here," he said. I called Mummy immediately and at first she thought someone crazy had phoned her right in the middle of the night until I told her what had happened. She asked me not to worry and that everything would turn out fine. As I was wide awake, I turned on my laptop again and chatted with Alvin for a while about the incident.

Seriously, I never thought that such thing could ever happen to me. I had shared a lot of ghost stories with my friends but they were just merely hearsay. I remembered sharing them with Jasmine, Alex and Eugenie in Bradford Lodge, with Mira, Ily and Wan in the Intec Library, and of course with all of my high school friends in Keat Hwa, but usually I just laughed it off and then nothing had ever happened. Ok, I had to admit that sometimes they scared the hell out of me.

Today morning, I received more calls from my family members asking me not to be scared and to be strong and calm. I knew that this incident would really haunt me for the rest of my life and I would never be able to forget it. However, I still wanted to thank God for saving me from whatever it was and also my family and friends for always being there for me whenever I needed them. Love you all lots.



Currently
listening to: Obsessed by MC
watching: The Final Destination
reading: Dance While You Can By Susan Lewis